dear subject...

i haven’t been on in a while, but i feel like a good blog entry is acceptable. i’ve been thinking a lot lately, but what’s new right? what is the true definition of happiness? is it really defined by ones standards and means of living? or does it have a true definition derived from roots we’re unfamiliar with? i suppose only the ones who experience it will only know. sure there are things that bring joy to our lives and makes us grateful for what we have. but that doesn’t mean it makes us happy, and it can’t guarantee things would stay that way. regardless, i suppose until an answer is found, we must look inside ourselves to find what could bring a peaceful emotion into our lives to make everything seem whole. 

sweet dreams everyone

<3

katie

and a good rant is necessary. i’m so screwed, it’s not funny. i’m worthless. debt. license-less. below average grades. i’d like to give up at life now. i’m scared. sick of just about everything. why me? i ask this sometimes when i’m as miserable as i am now. i need a miracle. where can i find one? 

with all the debate of whether or not i’m ready. i’ve decided i am. :3 i am ready to make that solid commitment to the man i love :) <3 i’m ready to spend forever with the only man i want to be with<3 forever, bring it on:)

—LET’S DO THIS LOVE THING—

:)

katie

but i feel freakin’ worthless. this is bullshit. and i am starting to see exactly how pointless basically everything is. sick of just about everything. why start shit? why be stupid? why, i’ve noticed is far from an invalid question. i’m politely telling everyone to fuck off, because i’m not happy, and i’m not in the mood. being alone has never sounded so….good.

i don’t necessarily see us as compatible, and i feel as though i should tell you. i wish to feel free, i wish to do what i want. i’m not sure how to tell you that i feel our separate ways are best, though i would love to spend forever with you. we don’t agree on much..nor do i feel as though we have much in common. i suppose i’ll figure it out, though i also feel that if it’s meant to work out, it will. we’ll see. 

—STAY DESIRABLE AND FORBIDDEN—

for now, 

katie.

i wish i could call off work every time i didn’t feel good…

oh how i miss you. maybe this time i can bring back a small piece of you so i can always be there<3 thanks for the amazing childhood, and all of the bittersweet memories i’ll cherish forever. maybe someday i’ll come back for good.

—ALWAYS MY FAVORITE MEMORY<3—

love,

katie.

i’ve found you:)) and i’m pretty sure i’m not letting go:)) thank you, for being awesome! i like how you make me feel errday:)) especially when i see him:)) love, i…love you!!!

—PLEASE DON’T GO ANYWHERE—

<3foreverrrrrr

katie:D)